Damn. Damn. Damn.
I’m blown away by my amazing lovely wonderful bestie from childhood and her words.
And I’m filled with pain, love and just wanting to make her feel better inside—to love herself, trust herself. The words flowing from her are ones I’ve seen and known about and have wished for her to heal for years and years and years and years. I couldn’t be more proud of her for getting to where she is today.
It’s a damn long, twisy turny road to getting to accepting our TRUE selves. And it’s always easier for someone else to be on the outside looking in. Yes, that person on the outside can be YOURSELF too—having that peripheral knowledge but not deep down accepting, listening, understanding. We all have our own burdens of the past to muddle through, and can only do this hard work on our own. In our own time.
Also reading her post reminded me that I too recently had a moment where I “lost it” and just screamed out loud — a sort of breakthrough. It didn’t even occur to me to write about it—but as I read hers I thought, damn I did that too! (And I thought I was going a bit crazy if I admitted it out loud.) I mean who screams out loud “ENOUGH” to spirit/universe/God/ANYONE? Well, I do apparently. And Joey does too. I’m taking this as a positive step in the right direction, it’s accepting that there is something above and beyond that is there guiding—if we only listen.